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Dreams are so unclear, fuzzy and ambiguous that it makes me feel surreal at times. It is enstrange to my situation that I find it funny. I just told someone about the Butterfly dream yesterday, and I'm so afraid that it will come true. If you have heard of the story of The Butterfly, you will feel the same. I think it's a pretty nice fairytale that one can ever find on this earth again.

So I was chatting with another someone(I wish to protect that person's identity here) and to realize that she used to cry on her way to school back five years ago. All because of backstabbing, gossiping. It is how fun and juicy it can be, yet heart-wrenching and painful one can be afflicted with. All this have made us stray away from a place we once held dear and loved so much. ): It's pretty sad though, knowing that it's the final year.

And this made me want to protect someone even more. Have you ever come across this person whom you just want to protect with all of your life? I have this friend whom I'm never close with, shopping trips(notice the contridiction here) not lasting more than four hours because we'll get on each other's nerves, not sharing what's inside us because we never thought we will understand. Yet there's this affinity in me now to want to love, to care and to protect her from all the harms that will cross the paths of her ahead. To be mocked at, gossiped about, scolded not out of love is a very sad thing. I know better than anyone of this hurt she's going through, and I'm all out ready to be her friend. But at the same time, I hope she'll free her heart for me(us) to create my(our) space, leaving footprints in her life. Future is not controlled by us; we don't know if one day we will still come together to reminisce, but I hope to color her last part of High School beautifully.

As for Huixin, I hope you'll always be happy. (:

Friday, May 20, 2005

Come Home Running.

Dreams are so unclear, fuzzy and ambiguous that it makes me feel surreal at times. It is enstrange to my situation that I find it funny. I just told someone about the Butterfly dream yesterday, and I'm so afraid that it will come true. If you have heard of the story of The Butterfly, you will feel the same. I think it's a pretty nice fairytale that one can ever find on this earth again.

So I was chatting with another someone(I wish to protect that person's identity here) and to realize that she used to cry on her way to school back five years ago. All because of backstabbing, gossiping. It is how fun and juicy it can be, yet heart-wrenching and painful one can be afflicted with. All this have made us stray away from a place we once held dear and loved so much. ): It's pretty sad though, knowing that it's the final year.

And this made me want to protect someone even more. Have you ever come across this person whom you just want to protect with all of your life? I have this friend whom I'm never close with, shopping trips(notice the contridiction here) not lasting more than four hours because we'll get on each other's nerves, not sharing what's inside us because we never thought we will understand. Yet there's this affinity in me now to want to love, to care and to protect her from all the harms that will cross the paths of her ahead. To be mocked at, gossiped about, scolded not out of love is a very sad thing. I know better than anyone of this hurt she's going through, and I'm all out ready to be her friend. But at the same time, I hope she'll free her heart for me(us) to create my(our) space, leaving footprints in her life. Future is not controlled by us; we don't know if one day we will still come together to reminisce, but I hope to color her last part of High School beautifully.

As for Huixin, I hope you'll always be happy. (:

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